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  • Bitter Defeat -- Sweet Victory

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  • Never Again?

    Tuesday, Jun 3, 2008 4:40AM / Standard Entry / Members only

    HEART BROKEN

     

    MUSIC STOLEN

     

    FROM MY LIPS

     

    PASSION STOLEN FROM MY HEART

     

    TORN APART

     

    THE CANDLE UNLIT

     

    NOW I'M LOST

     

    FAR FROM HOME

     

    VERY OLD

     

    TEARS ALL GONE

     

    FIRE SOLD

     

    SOLD TO.. DISCOURAGEMENT

     

    & DESPAIR

     

    SOLD TO.. 'EL OLVIDO'

     

    MUST I SURRENDER?

     

    IS THIS...                                NEVER AGAIN?

     


  • A New Epoca (Because of who You are and who I am in You)

    Saturday, May 10, 2008 9:30AM / Standard Entry / Members only

    So long

    So alone

    Oh how we strive against

    Rather than towards

    Your Spirit of peace and love

    I am Your daughter

    This I know very well

    A bringer of good news

    Yet my soul

    In pain and distress

    Calls out to You

    And the world is swirling, twirling and turning

    All around me

    I know things that many do not

    I feel things that many do not

    But yet I am merely as they are

    Even lowly and unimpressive than they are

    How will they know..

    Reach deep down inside 

    and

    let your heart

    Extend to Him

    He was and is and is to come

    He has been there for me

    I've faultered many times

    I owe Him much..

    I owe Him my life

    His Love is better than wine





















  • This poem is called, "It's about time I wrote another poem"

    Saturday, May 3, 2008 5:55AM / Standard Entry / Members only

    sinking

    try to stop me

    try to pull me down

    it won't be easy

    not happening

    wont be dragged around

    this is my time

    one way or another

    do or die

    ill be ready

    no matter the lies

    impossible/possible

    possible/impossible

    one way or another

    don't matter

    i dont give up

    this is my time

                                                                                                                                             Akira

     


  • Just a little survey I decided to take.. Apr 1

    Wednesday, Apr 2, 2008 1:35AM / Standard Entry / Members only

    A.                                                               
    Answer the questions as follows.  Then, delete one of the     questions you don't like      and add a new question.  There  should be 20 questions in total.  Pass it on to 11            people and list the people who will need to answer those      questions.  Notify them by    signing on their guestbook and  tell them that they've been picked.  The chosen ones   will   have to answer the questions.  They will then be forever      blessed by God and 
    everyone.                                                                                               B.                                                          
    The 11 chosen ones will have to mention who has picked them      and they will have to   pass it onto others in order for   the game to continue.  There are to be no repeated invites.   The chosen one will be blessed by everyone who has            participated in this game and their wishes will come true in  the not so distant
    future.                                  
                                                                
    ~The questions 
    begin~                                                                                                    
    1. Is reality in this world 
    harsh?                                                                                                                                                     
     It is harsh, this is also an understatement; it can make us  stronger if we choose it  and can give us greater           understanding of what love and goodness really is.                                                                                                                                       

    2. What    is     the     happiest    thing     in              

    in life?                                                       

    For me: my love for my daughter, her love for me; God likewise   and God’s love in all.                                          

    3. How long has it been since you've thought about things        quietly? (In this busy lifestyle)                              
     I'm usually thinking, and not so so busy, but that doesn't mean everything is so quiet..                                                                                                                                                                          

    4. What country would you really want to travel                  to?                                                            
    Jerusalem, Egypt, Japan and China, Mexico, Hawaii, Australia,    sheesh, I don’t know a lot of    
    places!!                                                                                                                                                         

    5. What annoys you most about                                    yourself?                                                       
    When I am fearful of the future or anything really, if I hurt    somebody or knew I could’ve dealt with something better,         anything negative that makes me unhappy.                                                                                         

    6. What do you do if you're not                                  happy?                                                          
    I think of God, pray, think of something positive (like my       daughter), sometimes sing!, just let whatever I have to let out  out or sleep, ooh I should take a nice long shower!!! Sometimes get angry and be miserable  can’t forget that!                                                                                                               

    7. What is your personal goal in life?                                                                                          
    To hopefully be happy as much as possible, tell people about my Jesus and take care of my    family.                                                         

    8. Any practical goals in the next 5 years?                                                                                     
    Sure, finish College this summer and get a job.  Pretty simple.. I take life as it comes to me and hopefully make the best decisions, even if it means putting myself out there.       
                                                                 

    9. What kind of supernatural powers you would like to            have?                                                          
    Don’t ask me that question, there’s more than one..  Alot!  Invisible when I want to be, fire powers, super strength (of course), be able to read people's mind only when I really want to.. move things supernaturally.. heehee  Whatever’s   clever!                                                         

    10. The most beautiful                                           place?                                                          
    In my dreams heaven, space, and wherever God would like to take  me.  On this planet, don’t know, I think I can appreciate many places (puerto rico is beautiful).  My daughter that’s the most beautiful person to me.                                        

    11. If you can fulfill one wish, what would it                   be?                                                            
    One wish is not enough, but I guess it would be to help my       mother retire.                                                  

    12. What are the things you'd expect in your other               half?                                                          
    I expect alot, therefore, give alot, I won't expect what I can't give.                                                                                                                              

    13. What do you think you lack and how would you like to improve upon that?                                                     
    More self-esteem, more courage, more patience, however I can be  a better mother and  daughter of God, I’m on                   it.                                                             

    14. What would you want to do if there were 7 days left before   the end of the world?                                          
    Strong question for me.  Would help as many people as possible   cope with fear and be couragous and faithfilled, and make sure my daughter is with me and in one accord.                                                  

    15. What's on your mind                                          today?                                                          
    Trying to manage writing this down and eating hot cheetos with   not so hot cheese anymore, and start on my energy drink.. and start on some computer homework, gonna turn the heater off soon… make sure I remember to pick up my               daughter!!  simple everyday things... and also would like to write honestly and well.                                                                                                                    

    16.Say something honest to someone you're thinking of. (Say that person's name as                                                 well)                                                           
    Your funny bleupluie..  What does that name                        mean??                                                          

    17. Any situation that you'd                                     hate?                                                           
    Being angry with family or people but extremely angry ?(not normal angry that I can handle
    easily).   It doesn't happen to me often people! Once in a huge while I'd say.                                                                            

    18. What is the worst thing that can happen on this              earth?                                                         
    Can’t say it’s too controversial,  Let’s say it happens everyday, someone suffering.                                              

    19. What do you want to be when you grow                         up?                                                            
    ??  Pressing forward, never giving                                up.                                                             

    20. If you were teleported to one moment in the past, when or    which year will you choose and why?                                                                                             
    Too many choices?  Hmm.. to see my daughter as a baby again and  share more moments with 
    her. I can't regret much in my past because if I were to change something maybe my daughter wouldn't be here and that I couldn't accept.                                                                                                   

    Next, I'd like to pass it on to...   I don’t have time to pass   it to eleven people and I’m  already blessed but it’s a cool game and I’d like to show it to Mr. Boon, unless, he’s      already done it...                                               heehee                                                                                                       


  • Craziest Trial

    Sunday, Mar 16, 2008 10:08PM / Standard Entry / Members only

    Well I haven't been around in a while, Hey! Hopefully everyone is doing good and keeping their heads up. It's funny though, I try to avoid dramatic situations but they come anyways, and I have no choice but to learn how to face them.  Not easy let me tell you.  I think I manage to piss off about seven to eight people in one day.  But I had my reasons, I just was overwhelmed emotionally so I didn't compose myself very well. I'm usually very nice and understanding, compassionate and non-judgemental, but something struck a cord, then forget it! Get out of the way!  I tried to calm the storm, later when I had enough sleep!!  I'm use to people getting the wrong idea of me anyways.  Regardless of my popularity, that wasn't what was so grave about what happen to me recently.  Let's just say it was all about old frustrations and caring about a friend.  It's all good, God never leaves me empty handed.


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