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Thursday, Jun 21, 2007 12:56AM / Standard Entry

朋友終于留下來了,花費了7年的時間值得了~~~至少我不會傷心多一次了...恭喜恭喜...以後要請我吃飯喲~~~

另一個生命就要來到這個世界了,面臨以後的艱辛,baby are you ready?可愛的小男生,未來的路不是你能想像的,但願你可以像你媽媽一樣的頑强,也希望你可以像你的姐姐一樣的幸福.好開心喲...27日,另一個朋友的第2個可愛的baby就要出生了...好期盼...可惜考試...看不到寶貝出生的畫面...好像看看剛剛生出來的baby到底會是怎麽樣的~~~

右手中指又出現問題了--"丹毒",可怕的東西...半年多都沒有了...現在經常寫錯字...而且還被人家誤會...真是的...好死不死偏偏是中指...-_-|||超汗!!!

eng ver. (sorry a_a_mio...)

my fren finally stay in singapore... she used 7 years to try to stay here... in the end... she did it... congras to her... i wont sad one more time... ( she will buy my meal...^-^)

my another fren will give birth on 27 JUNE... tat is a little boy... dear baby you need to face a terrible world in the futhure... so... baby are you ready? dear baby you cant imagine your futhure... wish you could like your mum be a strong man... wish you could like your sis be happy... I'm happy for my fren... but i couldnt go and see the 1st face of that little boy's... i got important test to do... so sad... i just wanna see how's the baby's face look like... when he just come out from his mum's womb...

my right hand middle finger is swollen... recently never rest well... and i cut my nails without careful...blood out...so the toxin of my body went out through the only exit tat is my finger's... it is ok... just pain onli... i still can take it... but... why is the MIDDLE FINGER?! i was misunderstood by others... so shame on me... i cant use tat finger at all... i mean nothings... aix... so lame leh...-_-|||

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还以为要死了

Tuesday, Jun 19, 2007 11:50PM / Standard Entry

真的以为要死了...最后,还是活着好好的...

人生不如意,10有8,9(这样的表达方式...第一次使用!)原来,什么事情都要时间来慢慢的稀释.

以前所发生的事情,在时间的稀释下,全都平息了.敌人成了朋友.

現在所要表達的就是,在時間稀釋了以前之後,朋友變成了敵人.循環,這個就是循環.

人體數字化,人體情緒化,人體在變化中一點點的發生著變化.

人啊~~~真是,最可憐的動物,既是冷血生物,也是讓自己都難以理解的可憐虫.

plz啊,快點長大吧,不要在像個小孩一樣了,你已經都不年輕了,却還讓自己和一個心智不全的癲婆左右爲伴.可憐的你啊,正在步入瘋狂世界中,金錢已經讓你看不清自己到底要什麽了.而你確實是一個容易被左右的人,于是...你和我越來越逺了.

我就這樣的在你眼中成了一個大騙子!!!

而那讓你喪失理智的癲婆确成了唯一瞭解你的人.那麽,好吧,我退出,你就繼續享受她帶給你的奇妙世界吧.總有一天,你會迷失在瘋狂中再也找不到出口,虛榮讓你不在單純,雖然,你根本就不單純.

叫你以聲"姐姐",請珍重!

我的世界已經不會在爲你開放,我以和你形同陌路.大家不要在有任何的瓜葛了.夠了,到此爲止吧.

時間,讓我們成了對立的敵人!

真的,我還以爲要死了~~~呵呵~~~

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S'pore River... Silent Night.

Sunday, Jun 17, 2007 1:46AM / Standard Entry

Finally she back to S'pore. My time will get more fun... She looks great... She talked wit me abt last 1 month... She is my god-sister---YUKI.
We went to S'pore River(CLARK QUAY). we were sitting there for few hours... talked few... just looked at the beautiful river... listened to the people laughing,shouting,crying,and their happy talking... felt their sadness, lonelyness,helpless,and useless...
I've been S'pore for years... but now... i really lost... the river is beautiful always... the boats on the river everyday,the pubs will open every nitez,the visitors would changed every second... but, the stress just like the beautiful river always in my mind, and the stress just like the visitors could changed every single second... however, the result is all the same... i cant wave it away... it just likes the nightmare.

1 week already, the longest time of my slp is 4.30 hrs... today i just slp 3 more hrs and till now... i still awake... but... my mind is mess, and confuse... inside of my brain... all the words of web-service, multimedia, and WBIS'... but still need to memorize all the modules in my brain... my body is tired... my mind is messy... my life is sucks... my health is really bad...
wat to do?!
i still need to think the way of mine... should i change it to another way to go? or just keep on my steps on it?
i always wanna go to Japan... i wanna feel the real stress... onli in Japan got it... the japanese are busy everyday, they do everything for the stress... some of them choosed suicide to end of their pity lifes... if you wanna test youself strong enough, plz go to Japan...
i dun think i could go there... i cant take the stress anymore... if i were there... i might be end of my sucks life by the suicide... shame on me. but... before i'll be a dead, i wanna try the feeling of real stress by myself...

aix... day-dreaming...

the S'pore River is really beautiful, attract all the people's eyes on it... before you fall in love with this beautiful river... can you ask yourself, can i really feel all the feelings of this river'?

tonite is quite, but rain... i'm glad to be here... i'm still alive... i have no choice, i have to face tml as usual... i still need to fight with my study... i must challenge myself every minutes...

in my dream, everything turns good... but the truth...

"wat eva"&"anything"... wat to do... i choosed tis way... so i need to go... till the next cross road.

gd nite... i hate myself very much... useless me...

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绝望

Wednesday, Jun 13, 2007 8:03PM / Standard Entry

有一种绝望的感觉.什么一起来的,什么都是我不可以预料的.太多的东西让我觉得我精神上已经严重的崩溃.从开始倒现在,我一直在走长路,相当长的路,我一直对自己说,没有关系,走长路也许不是一件坏事情,因为在走长路的过程中,我可能会学会更多的东西,见识也会增长不少.事实如此.

以前觉得时间很多,用不完,挥霍不尽.而现如今,我觉得除了时间,我什么都很丰盛.然而,我最需要的就是时间.会到了3个星期以前的生活,出了每天的4个小时可以休息之外,几乎全都在忙碌中,吃饭,来看BLOG,都是奢侈的.时间在做这些东西的同时也一点点的流失着.

然后,绝望就开始在心中那个阴暗的角落里滋生,肆意的成长壮大,于是,积极的感觉被绝望侵蚀,我不是那种会放松自己的人,我一直把自己保持在紧张的状态中,我在一直的提醒着我自己:我必须要这样,我一定要这样.于是,我把自己一点点的逼近了绝望的陷阱.不是,我不要放松,如果我放松了的话,我会感觉,那便是我要离开的时候了.

失败着失败,一次又一次的站起来,心不停的对我自己说,必须要站起来,不然,我会变成另一个失败者.于是,我遵从着我的心,一次又一次的站起来,随后便又跌倒,然后继续站起来,伤痕累累了,却还在为着成功努力着,最后,我放弃了再次站起来的机会,因为我已经看不到希望了.于是坐在原点,看着周围的人们用异样的眼光看着我从眼睛中发出了求救,却没有一个人愿意伸手拉我起来.人,冷漠的动物.如果说蜥蜴是冷血的动物,那就是大错特错,其实,人类是最冷血的.没有语言和文字可以形容,只有自己的感觉,那才是最真是的.

头脑不清醒.却可以感觉到心脏一如既往的工作着.于是,为了答谢心的卖力工作,我能做的就只有帮它好好的休息一下.如何让自己的心休息呢?从文具盒子里,找到了一把尚未使用过的pen knife,刀刃异常的锋利.

可是,我却输给了勇气和责任.借口,我知道我在努力的为自己找借口,但是,我真的没有勇气把刀刃放在我的手腕上,更没有勇气划下去.那个时候,我能做的就是和自己进行斗争... 理性胜利了.勇气决定了我的最终失败.

这样的生活方式,我已经厌倦了.走的太远了,我已经找不到任何一条可以回去的路了.迷失在自己的绝望中,任绝望一点点的侵蚀着自己的身心,

我真的好累啊~~~真的希望自己可以有点,哪怕就是那么以点点的勇气也好,我就可以永远的远离现在的困苦.我受够了...我真的已经不能理解我自己了.还有比现在更可怕的未来吗?回答,当然,一定有!!!

神啊,如果你已经感受到我的困苦的话,请放手让我走,我要把自己的灵魂交给魔鬼.我是自寻死路的,我有责任在地狱里继续承受着我的失败,至少,我的身体不会在有累的感觉...

有什么可以让我不在思索的方法吗?请告诉我吧...

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fantabulous~~~(from a_a mio~)

Sunday, Jun 10, 2007 5:48PM / Standard Entry

1. What is the most fantabulous thing that has happened this week?
    Yesterday 6 frenz and me went to Sentosa for sun"BURN" and we were so high...
2. When you are feeling kinda down, what do you do to make yourself feel fantabulous?
    Listen music or go for window-shopping wit frenz.
3. If you could change one thing about your life that would make you feel more fantabulous, what would it be?
    It would be... emmmmm~~~ stay at home wit my parents... dun leave them till i die...

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